• Backwards Mom

    What’s In My Amazon Box?

    This post contains affiliate links. If you click on a link I may receive a commission.    I apologize if you are going through withdrawal without any posts, but it’s tax season over here. So let’s talk Amazon.   Who doesn’t love when UPS stops by the office with a box? I love it. It’s like Christmas…..maybe that is what makes online shopping so intriguing. As a busy mom of four, I like to use Amazon and other variety of online stores to do my shopping. I don’t have to load everyone up and most of the time can get the same deals online as in the store! So here…

  • Backwards Mom

    Anxiety Induced Infertility

    I need to digress from foster care for a while, so I will answer the question everyone wants to know……was Jett an in vitro baby? There were many years I felt alone when it came to kids and sex. There was something in this area that just wasn’t right about me. My friends talked about how they loved sex…their honeymoons were hottt (yes with the triple “t'”), and marriage was invigorating. There had to be something wrong with me. Why at twenty-something was I experiencing the complete opposite?   Truth Bomb. I think it all started on our honeymoon. Sex wasn’t what I expected it to be, and I’m sure…

  • Foster Care

    S*** Happens-Episode 4

    S*** happens is an understatement this week. Seriously, this week has been about the second worst week in my life. You can read about my worst week in the post The Hardest Moment. I haven’t decided if it’s actually worse or not, so I’m giving it second place. Maybe it’s not harder, but it’s definitely worse in the disappointment category. It is like falling off a frog backwards. I have shed a lot of tears over things that aren’t in my control. My sleeping hours are getting less and less and work hours more and more. What I thought the next months would look like changed with one shocking phone…

  • Backwards Mom

    Why I Send my Kids to a Public Daycare

    Child care.  We could all play the mom guilt card on this subject.  I have no mom guilt in being a working mom.  None.  I have no mom guilt sending me kids to a public daycare…..yes a public city daycare.  I am not sure why people are so concerned about where I send my kids because it’s a personal choice that I make. Public daycare’s aren’t perfect and there are things I wish could be done better, but it fits my work and my life and my kids.  So take this all you eye rollers at public daycare that make me feel like a terrible mom. (And by no means…

  • Foster Care

    The Hardest Moment

    It’s 2019 and I should probably set some goals, but I hardly get time to use the rest room by myself that sitting down and writing out goals seems a bit extreme. (It’s not that I don’t have goals in life, because I do.  I just don’t use a New Year to reset my goals. I make goals all year. )   As I was working out this morning (yes I know that not all of you are into that type of thing), I was thinking about how I promised to tell you why child-birth was the second hardest thing I have done in life. So I figured why not reflect on the hard things in life when everyone else is celebrating a new start of the year. If…

  • Backwards Mom

    This is Our Christmas Card

    Aaahh, Christmas cards. You know those things that are made by creative good moms. All of them are so well done. I have two stacks….the moms who made the “cute” Christmas card and the ones that made the “overachiever” Christmas Card….you know who you are! What is the “overachiever” card you ask? They are the ones with the two page letter about their family in addition to the Christmas card! (No guilt trip here for those of you that do it! Kudos to you!) I have no clue how anyone finds time to first of all make the card, order the right amount of cards, address the cards, mail the…

  • Foster Care

    Sauntering Strangers

    To those of you who asked….yes…..Olga really is the name of the lady who spent a summer trying to get me to say yes to foster kids. I did NOT make that up. How many times do I need to tell you I don’t make up “stuff” for this blog? After Olga calls, a stranger walks into your door that night or that week. The anticipation of what he or she looks like and the personality that they possess is worse than a three-year-old waiting for Christmas morning to come. It’s an uncanny feeling to have a child, who you have only known for a few minutes, walk around your…

  • Foster Care

    Instant Family Movie Nailed It

    My husband and I aren’t big movie people, but when I saw the trailer for Instant Family I knew that I needed to see this movie. Not for entertainment purposes, but because I wanted to see the accuracy of the movie and it’s portrayal of foster care. Foster care is a hard thing to understand when you haven’t been directly involved in it. It intrigued me that a movie could try replicate this life journey in less than two hours. If you are a foster parent, you will want to see this movie. You will be laughing when no one is laughing and crying when no one else is crying. If…

  • Family Life,  Foster Care

    S*** Happens-Episode 3

    It’s been quite the couple of weeks. A lot of S*** happened, but my heart is still so full because of the sweet moments that are amidst the s***. Sometimes it’s hard to see the sweetness when your in the middle of it all. A shout out to all you moms with lots of kids, you are all rock-stars. So here it is! This post contains affiliate links and if you click on a link I may receive a commission which allows me to keep writing.  We are just sitting here in Iowa like why didn’t we move to Atlanta, GA or San Deigo, CA like our siblings.   There…